3 months ago my beloved cat Angel passed away and then just this week, my cat Checkers passed away as well. I have come to realize that grief is very real for all those that you love and hold dear. If you have been blessed as I have been to have such tremendous life experience with those that I love, you grieve for that loss. The incredible things that these cats as well as all of my animals have taught me, is invaluable. They were funny, comforting and affectionate. They knew when to talk and when to stay silent; they knew when to eat and when to play; they knew when to get into mischief and when to sleep. They knew everything. What incredible teachers!
I believe we all choose when to transition from this life to another but sometimes family members want to hold on and the person or animal will stay around for us. That is their gift to us and our gift to them is to let them go. Death will shake us, it will change us, it will cause us to resist or to surrender. Death is our teacher and our tomentor. It is life altering and unsettling. But with the contrast of death we view life a little bit different, a little more profound, a little more soul searching and reflective.
So my heart is broken but it will mend. I think back to when I lost other animals and how they reacted to the situation. They were silent as if in reflection and then they went off to play. They know how to stay in the moment and they also know that death is just a transition of energy and life goes on. I held Checkers on her last day and whispered into her ear, ” my love for you is bigger than the sky; deeper than the ocean and brighter than all the stars in the galaxy, times a gazillion. That’s how much I love you. If you want to go, it’s OK and I will be alright. You choose when you want to go home.” And a few hours later, Checkers released her body.
So goodbye my friend. I will be OK. I will see you again.